Letters to my daughter#1 – Love

I have never known love like the comfort of holding you

I have never known pleasure like the joy of kissing you

I have never known strength like the will to fight for you

I have never known fear like the thought of losing you

You redefine me and everything I have ever believed

I will never know a life again without your life blooming in it

Grief

I’m sad. No matter how hard I try to believe otherwise, my body has given its verdict and I will not fight it anymore.

The only way to get through grief is to live through it, right? There’s no easier way to do it. There’s no shorter route to the end of the tunnel.

It is slow and painful. But it is what it is. I will live through it.

Resilience

My eyes are tired, as if they haven’t slept in years

My heart is dry, as if it hasn’t rained since long

My mind is clogged, as if in the middle of an eternal duststorm

Yet here I breathe, breeze in breeze out

With every blink of my eye, I run towards a tiny ray of hope

Hoping that it will pull me out in sunshine and meadow . Amen

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Save myself

I want you out of me, all of you.

I despise your selfish touch

I despise your harsh words

You have no respect for anybody whatsoever

But you will act victim. Everytime

Maybe I deserved you

Maybe you’re my wakeup call

But one day I’ll free myself of you

One day I’ll save myself .

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Vulnerability 

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One of the things that disturb me the most is watching people take away other people’s right to freedom. Freedom to express themselves, freedom to just be.

I come across these posts on Facebook where people like you and me, the ordinary kind, judge other people based on how their opinions are shaped by their disabilities. And I find it so disgusting. Would any of us wear our flaws out in the open and then let people like us judge them for its impact on our speech?

We live in a world where people cannot come forward with their deficiencies. Where we cannot take bravery and mettle from the deprived. We have a self-engrossed concept of pain and the subsequent reaction to it. We will hide our own flaws behind the armour of our body, and boldly criticise those who live a life of vulnerability and no amount of armour can hide it for them. 

What we fail to realise is when God puts people through a grave trial, He empowers them with equal strength to carry its weight. 

And fact of the matter is those who don’t know how to be vulnerable, will never truly experience what real strength and liberation of embracing yourself are. 

So as long as your freedom is not hurting another being. Be free in mind, body, and heart. 

5-year Window

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A few days back I talked about fear. How fear is a predator that feeds on self-doubts. The more you analyse a situation, the more you compare, (the two being sort of inevitable) the more doubts you create and consequently fear multiplies, causing you more distress.

I’ve recently found myself devising an alternative pathway of thinking that escapes this perilous cycle. 

How about envisioning your life in a 5-year window? 

How much do you want to attain at the end of 5 years? Think, analyse, compare in this window instead of a narrower period of one year. If things are not working out for you right now, imagine the impact of delay not on your immediate routine but at the collective end of a 5-year experience. 

What it does for you, is it takes away the anxiety of momentary delay. It takes away the fear of lagging behind and not attaining things at the end of a year.

It also opens your mind to try out new things. Even if you fail, you have time to make up for that lost in trying a new thing. Consequently, you gain experience without losing anything. 

We all instinctively desire a gingerly ride when it comes to career. Even though, like anything else, a part of it is not in our control. So combat fear and appease your mind. What is due will come your way. 

Daily Prompt: Gingerly