Can I lay down in your lap? Silence everything.
Will you stroke my hair and kiss my forehead?
I want to rest in your shade and hear you speak
Of hope and light and all things merry
I’m tired dear mommy, wrap your arms around me
Kiss me good night and stay here with me.
I love you so much. If I could say it enough, if you could hear it enough. Everyday you light up my heart, my soul, my mind. My little miracle. My sunshine. My happiness.
I want to disappear
Dissipate into a million specks
I want to silence all that speaks
Into still moments of eternity
Free me from the constraints of time
Let me be all over again
It was a long day, today! And finally its nighttime, 11:23pm to be precise, 37 minutes before it’s officially over.
And the first day is the worst, right?
I have all the reason to believe that tomorrow will be a better day?
Am I living a deja vu? Are my years on a loop? Last year this time I had lost. It took me a year to gather my bits that are now floating in a vacuum. Oh I see them.
No matter what happens, I’ll never hate you Autumn. So what if you split things, you didn’t choose the Nature, you already carry too much pain. I forgive you. Until again, I’ll start collecting my bits all over again.
Not like the stars that shine every night, not like the sun that rises everyday, but like a drop that falls in an ocean, or like a grain that falls in a terrain. Once and for all, lost forever.
The idea for the Blessed Project comes from Susie Lindua’s vivacious blog, Susie Lindau’s Wild Ride.
Whats better than tidying up the most dynamic year of my life with a thread of gratitude. Before I begin and if anyone is interested, here’s a link to Part I, the Scars. Here I go,
I am Home
I say, home is where there are people who will put up with your worst and who just won’t leave.
To find peace and harmony in your home is one of the greatest blessings ever. One I’ve been bestowed with, and one I will not let go for the rest of my life.
Writing
I took up writing merely to appease a heart in turmoil. This blog is my heart inside out. And what it has returned me is love, acceptance and the miracle of sharing. I consider this a huge compensation from the Divine for all the upheaval, and its worth it.
Incredible Parents
I haven’t been the most easy child to be dealt with. For one, I’m different. They don’t know how to console me, on most days I don’t know that myself. But they’ve stayed.
My mother is a woman of incredible strength and grace. How has she been able to wear her gorgeous smile all these years, through light and dark is beyond me. She is angelic.
My dad is a tough man. But he doesn’t give up. One of the reasons I haven’t given up on my life, was because he was standing beside me, despite our differences not letting me give up. I don’t know if I will reach somewhere or not, but I have learnt the art to carry on from these two incredible folks.
Thank you God.
A Beautiful Life
There are a million other things I’m thankful for, but I will sum it as a Beautiful Life. A life filled with amazing friends, privileges and comfort, and a soul. All my down days have left me with a heart that knows how to acknowledge beauty, and the source of all beauty is God.
I learnt to fly by first learning to walk
I flew in shards to find myself whole in block
I lost myself to find the God
Adios 2017! 🎊
Another quivering sun
Pulling on a tide of memories
What a wicked way to go down.
Fall Musings 