I have never known love like the comfort of holding you
I have never known pleasure like the joy of kissing you
I have never known strength like the will to fight for you
I have never known fear like the thought of losing you
You redefine me and everything I have ever believed
I will never know a life again without your life blooming in it
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This is the end, my dear
Of you and me together as we
I don’t know if you even felt that about me
I am protesting now, see. Would you have that from me?
I wish you were a better man
I wish you were a better husband
I wish you were a better father
I wish you were all those things
Before it was too late
But even if you couldn’t be all of those
Could you not be a good human being atleast?
They say love can move mountains
Was my love not enough?
Were we ever in love?
Did we even have a marriage?
Maybe it was all an ugly display
That has turned into ruin now
Do I laugh or cry?
At this deliverance and solitude.
The heart and the mind work funny ways
So desperate for happiness
They carve images of love out of tearful memories
So pathetic for attention
They close their eyes to reality and choose to believe in a mirage.
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Courage dear heart,
Its not your time or place.
So all your strength was but another facade
Carefully put together to lure us in
We don’t allow ourselves to be fooled by you again
From here onwards, we choose our own path
Let me mourn you today
Tomorrow, there’ll be no place for you to stay.
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My eyes are tired, as if they haven’t slept in years
My heart is dry, as if it hasn’t rained since long
My mind is clogged, as if in the middle of an eternal duststorm
Yet here I breathe, breeze in breeze out
With every blink of my eye, I run towards a tiny ray of hope
Hoping that it will pull me out in sunshine and meadow . Amen
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You owned up everything
You came upfront and faced all the consequences
How did you get to be so brave?
Where will we go from here?
I wish I could fast forward our lives to few years from now
When all the dust has hopefully settled and we’re headed somewhere
Somewhere happier, somewhere less complicated
Oh how I wish I could.
I know sometime later, it will hurt less
Things will make sense, and we will move on
I know sometime later, your voice will not shake my heart
And places we visited won’t make me crave
I guess I can feel now, the loss you felt at losing your lighthouse
But I wish you could see that it wasn’t my punishment to take
I know sometime later, I will heal
I only hope you can find it in your heart to heal yourself too
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I thought the difficult part was facing the facts and seeking help
Or talking to others about it.
But none of it was as difficult as seeing you
Knowing what could have been and didn’t.
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Yes ma, he yelled at your little one again
Oh what would you do?
Yes ma, he belittled your princess again
Oh but what would you do?
I see your eyes searching for truth
Trying hard to see if your little one cried last night
As if knowing the truth would make a difference
Everyone is so happy today, what a perfect family
Lets all close our eyes and pretend to not see its ugliness
Cuz we all want everyone to be happy together
The cost of which should not be voiced
So I have learnt it ma though you didnt teach me
You will never be able to tell my smile apart, it’s an art of disguise
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Each fight is worse than before, but I wonder whats the worst? Has it passed or is it yet to come?
Should I prepare or live in the moment? What difference does it make?
You! You can sulk all day, as you on most days do. You can lay back on the couch and care about not a thing in the world.
But me? I’m a mother. I get no days to sulk. I have to get up each morning, gather all strength and make our child feel like its just another day. Put up a smile, make her happy while my head hurts and I feel weighed down. But I won’t show you and that kills you, doesn’t it?
It bothers you why you can’t break me? My resilience burns you. Burn. Cuz I aint going down because of you. No matter how long the cat and dog show continues, I’m standing the ground.